Some catching up to do

Been a while... No, years since 4 of us came together to catch up on things we have missed out with... Our lives seem to transform into new and exciting journeys overnight (other than mine of course, will get to that later). One's already engaged and just got her new home. One's working in a, i would say renowned company. One's doing her Honours in Uni, and intending to get her masters....One (poor me) is still a student struggling with her FYP....

I'm glad, really glad to catch up on the developments in their lives; what they have gone through and what are they intending to do in the near future and years down the road... But.... it made me want to start working straight away.... Like... Look at me~! I'm 22 and I'm still studying and taking pocket money from my parents~! Disgusting~! It also made me wonder what i want to achieve in life.... Do i want to continue with this profession once i graduate? Will i encounter a mid career crisis where i change my career path? Where's my path? i don't seem to find it~! What i know is my parents aren't young and working.... My younger brother is still .... young.... at the moment no one is contributing much to this family...

sigh..... Friends say i still look the same.... Yah lah, i'm still a student, what do they expect.... Dolling up is not a necessity , neither is it a requirement to study... But they say i still look like a kid... ahahha which i totally agree... I damn bloody look like a "gin na" (child, in hokkien) lah... I'd have to be stopped to have my IC checked, even when i'm watching a M18 movie~! Every attachment i went, i get comments like "Wha~! you very small size hor? Wha! you look very young leh!" and not to mention the stares from which i derive as "You don't look competent. Are you sure you can handle it?"... Utterly sick and irritating. Then comes with the philosophy of self proclaiming prophecy, or something like that, i act more childish to suit their thinking and expectations. Whatever i do exceptionally well is considered an unexpected bonus...

Thinking so much just complicates things further.... Making the already bleak future more dark and messy... Yearning for a simple and ritualistic life was what i envisioned for this boring soul of mine. But the other irritating and egoistic part of me wishes for more, like CARS, CREDIT, CASH, CARTIER, CARAT, COMFORT.... etc.... There's nothing to start with now, so.... no point thinking lah....

Hungry.... better go coma....